is life. One stumbles and falls on the first occasion.
One tells oneself: "Oh! one can't always be so serious",
and when the other part returns, once again, one repents
bitterly: "I was a fool, I have wasted my time, now
I must begin again...." At times there is one part
that's ill-humoured, in revolt, full of worries, and
another which is progressive, full of surrender. All
that, one after the other.
There is but one remedy: the signpost must always
be there, a mirror well placed in one's feelings,
impulses, all one's sensations. One sees them in this
mirror. There are some which are not very beautiful
or pleasant to look at; there are others which are
beautiful, pleasant, and must be kept. This one does
a hundred times a day if necessary. And it is very
interesting. One draws a kind of big circle around
the psychic mirror and arranges all the elements around
it. If there is something that is not all right, it
casts a sort of grey shadow upon the mirror: this
element must be shifted, organised. It must be spoken
to, made to understand, one must come out of that
darkness. If you do that, you never get bored.
( Vol.5, p. 10)