The Mother on Pavitra on May 28, 1969

XX: Pavitra's experience on night of February 5, 1966
" It is a night of fully conscious spiritual experience, a night of torture and glory.
" I walked through large rooms in which beings without communication with outside were living. And other rooms where wretched beings were dragging out a wretched life. They took notice of my presence, which seemed to bring them a ray of light from outside. A few reacted well, with a smile; others fled. A few knocked against me. Then I went into other rooms. The same goal always seemed to justify my presence. For, as I went by, a few showed a sign of hope. But at the same time obstacles, sufferings, tortures of all kinds fell on me. They were not deliberately inflicted tortures, but sorts of reactions of ignorance and suffering.
" This work progressively became more and more difficult for me. I moved about with difficulty, walked more and more slowly, as though overburdened, until it finally became difficult for me to find my way ... to escape.
" These experiences seemed to last forr a long time. When they ended, I found myself in my physical body, surprised that it bore no marks of all that I had just undergone.
" But I slowly began to understand the meaning of all that had taken place. An immense gratitude rose from my heart towards the Supreme, as did an entire self-giving so that His Will may be accomplished everywhere.
" I perceived the meaning of the great promise:
'I shall deliver you from all evil, fear not.'
" That promise of victory from the Divine embodied on the earth carried me away with joy.
" I repeat that I was fully conscious for as long as those experiences lasted.
" That is all I have to say."

Mother: Is it after this that he fell ill?

XX: It's about that time. That's when he started walking with two canes.

Mother: (After a long silence) It would mean that he took upon himself quite a few people's burdens .... So that would explain what happened: on the day he left, a number of people were terribly attacked by things, as if those were coming back onto them; things that had been taken away from them and which were coming back onto them-especially women.
(long silence)
There was in him a being more conscious than he. That's obvious. It was that same being which absorbed [others' suffering].